a lot of questions have been answered today and im not going to lie, its kind of sad. SAD MOMENT OVER! honestly, though my life is SO MUCH DIFFERENT than it was a month ago, im actually alright with it. there is always going to be a time and place but for right now, standing still is strangely comforting. and although i am jealous that some people are getting a head start, i have a sneaky feeling that i will be alright in the end.